On Pinterest the other day I saw one of those inspirational posters that read:
How you do something is how you do everything.
I guess this was supposed to be motivational, but it really just made me feel defeated. It is absolutely true that I am handling this new kitchen design exactly the same way I handle just about everything else.
By the seat of my pants.
I admire people who plan ahead, who are very detail oriented. Who start a design--Fair Isle or kitchen--with a strong idea and solidly pinned down details.
But I don't seem to be one of them. And frankly I must admit that part of me is really irritated by such people.
I like to keep my options open. And I have a strong Sudoku Mind--I can see ahead in a branching and branching and branching decision tree: if this, then this, then if that, then this.... If left to its own devices my mind would solidify like one of those chemical solutions that begins with a little crystal that picks up speed, finally filling the cylinder with a solid where there once was liquid. So I control this tendency by refusing to, well, go there.
Still, it's pretty scary in its own way. Like when your kitchen is torn down to the studs and you are still trying to figure out the general look you are going for.
Hypothetically speaking, of course.
So, here's where we are with the remodel:
When I posted about the kitchen two weeks ago the cabinets had just been delivered and installed. I felt pretty damned excited. And then just days later the wood floor was installed and the first coats of stain were applied. It really began to look like things were moving along. I posted the following photo to Facebook:
A couple of days of rained slowed things down, but now the trim has been installed and the countertops have been set in place. I wander in there, placing bowls and books on the counter to get a sense of living in this space.
The tile guys arrived this morning. Painters come tomorrow, then floor guys to finish the job, appliances get delivered, and then the electrician and plumber pull it all together.
Each step of the way I've been a just-in-time decision maker. I'm still pondering the color of the powder room... but no worries! They don't need to know until tomorrow. And I haven't bought the pendant lights yet. Oops. Although I think that hanging bulb you see in the photo is certainly a style statement.
It all seems to work out, but the psychological toll is a constant stream of second guessing. This just seems to be how it is. The simple fact of the matter is that I'm not a pulled-together, coordinated person, and my home reflects that. As much as I may wish I were otherwise from time to time. How you do something is how you do everything, indeed.
At any rate, on Monday morning I leave for Wisconsin, and the contractor tells me that when I return I will find a functional kitchen!